mua...da centre of life

2006-02-02T01:52:00.000-08:00

If you dont know the kind of person i am
And I dont know the kind of person you are
A pattern that others made may prevail in the world
And following the wrong god home we may miss our star

For there is many a small betrayal in the mind,
a shrug that lets the fragile sequence break
Sending with shouts the horrible errors of childhood
Storming out to play through the broken dyke.

And as elephants parade holding each elephant's tail,
but if one wanders the circus wont find the park,
I call it cruel and maybe the root of all cruelty
To know what occurs but not to recognize the fact.

And so i appeal to a voice, to something shadowy,
a remote important region in all who talk :
Though we could fool each other, we should consider -
lest the parade of our mutual life get lost in the dark.

For it is important that awake people be awake,
or a breaking line may dicourage them back to sleep ;
the signals we give - yes or no, or maybe -
should be clear : the darkness around us is deep.

-- William Stafford (1914 - 1993)

i HatE ProVincEs.... [ WaaaRghh!! ]

2005-12-15T06:18:00.000-08:00

hieeee.......sry i havnt lyk postd in a long tym but i've been in this province wer { in my eyes } ppl are TORTURED. no clean water !!! WUAHHHHHHH!! electricity is NOT KNOWN. comfort _______ erm let uz see .......NONE!! URRRGHH!! plus wen i got back to civilisation ( FINALLY ) i LOST the 2*** my gran gave me !! arghhhh.....duble shiit... oah yeah n fer Lily, ur dog lyk totally pooped on my lap....GROSS OUT ... N he has a galfren!! GIANT labrador but shes real beatuful. lives at manang nida's hous! LoL, i bet she drinks alchohol for watr!! hahaha.... n garson..herm....he ahh...sori arh LiLzz..but he n Nic r bak 2geder.... NOT joking euu ! soorri...

anywae, i wont be postin 4 a while cuz nxt i'll be in sum mountain supposedly trying to "cleanse myself". at least i've been there n it knda rox... n i've invited garson n nic so Lilz, u can cum erh.... my gran LUVS euu......hard to see why!! LoL!! soo nice...dun need aircon......all foggy!!

okz....zan zan zan.....dat stupid game arh?? tagg wutev...dunno...okies...

^#> 1. im irritating and hyper active around family and i think im kinda e same
wid my frns too....arhz...curse me....

^#> 2. i watch tv, play ps2 n chat at de same time until 5 a.m. and DO NOT
accept changes in anything ( i kill my eyes fr fun....yay...)

^#> 3. im atracted to shiny things ( soooo shiiiny...oooohh ) n i LUV snack
pack!! chocolate anything rules the WORLD!! vote choco for
president!! whoo whoo!! { oprah is mah frrreennn } >>>>>>>>

^#> 4. need an ipod.....tok vulgarish wen mixed wid my cuzez.......not soo
much larh but lyk..anywae...okok...

^#> 5. im anorexic, bloleamic ( if thats how euu spell it ) and all those really
sickly stuff...vomiting technically....

0K.....i am done n i want to SLEEEP!!! arhh.....ok ok ok......ppl...Lily, Saiba, Zan, thirah n brad pitt!! no anjelina jolie...kk? buayz....

I nOw PoS pOs!!

2005-11-20T23:57:00.000-08:00

okz...... hies.. now i pos pos... eyz..y muay letters in bloggie ko masyada maliit no? newayz.... this is dedicated to the gunniess world records of.... drumroll...... SHORTEST short EVHER. !! harx.. n hu else cud set dis but the 'LOVELY' miss ghahana !! dun wurry...we all still love euu! n alyssa if u lik visit muay blog, which i dun tnk u vill nywae, i SERIOUSLY dntd copie euu cuz it really happnd harr... newayz... miss g made it clear to usss bou her feminine ability by.... what else? ... duuh... showing off to her 'group' , which sadly, im in. hahax... it wuz like a friggin underwear yar! n u lik wur it to the movies! noghtti noghtti........

ok.. i tink im gettin WAY too catty now.. sooryy!! naww.... harx..u lah lily..u understand haaw?? dis ahh, dedicated to the AWESOME lily ghahana hu, i must remind, wore the underwear slash shorts to just like heaven! ~ HaHa ~ }}} n garson wuz like starin at euu hehz! not complimentary wae! LoL... luv euu all....

+{{ NeW PaRaGrApH }}+

ehhz... saiba, dat stupid (not stupid) song is still stuck in my head! no offence...if it is offensive jus tell me yarh.... Lily also.... u wanted me to tell da whole world wut..!! so i did... hehe... im singing it while lisening to ur themesong... SOO BAD.. missing da peepol in in my class n gonna miss the p6 pps leavin!! *crycry sobsob. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

No one cares enough to know
No one knows enough to care,

Love and happiness, barely any to show,

Love is black, nothing but darkness, nothing

there,

Blind hatred staring you in the face like a bright light,

Blind people finding love at first sight,

The bad, the worthless and more to come,

The sad, the useless there’s more then just some,

Being caught in the middle, betrayed by everyone around,

Being chased till your screams are left without a sound,

Fighting to gain a lose needed so much,

Fighting until your mind goes insane it hurts to touch,

Trying to breathe the air that is yours,

Trying to mend such painful sores,

Still staring you in the face, is nothing but hate,

Still sitting in the back of your mind, this must be fate,

Wishing this anger and frustration will stop,

Wishing this anger and frustration will leave,

Bleeding wrists beginning to sting,

Bleeding eyes, full of tears and fears, won’t stop crying,

Until the day has come, the day to spare,

Until someone notices you, finally will someone care ..

No, because no one knows enough to care,

No, because no on cares enough to know,

Till the day of your sad sorrow.

this post is soo long so im gnna end it here!

ExAmS aRe OvEr!!!

2005-10-27T23:27:00.000-07:00

im freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....or jus read my msn nick yeah...haha...im freeeee.....my eingwish sooo.......HIGH!!! hahahahahaha ....jkjk..actually high larh..hahahahaha..but duwana be BOS-BOS .. like sum ppl..heehee..im still....SALTY!!!! tooo baaadd.....i INFECT!! n special gud-biee to jomie...sobsob..soo sad...newayz...mrs t iz cuming back on MUDNAY!! yesh..muDnay...science wuz soo EASY...hahah lol..got my NAAAAAMMEE!!!...die in muay...SALT!!!! muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

mmph..

2005-10-25T00:44:00.000-07:00

haiix..pwease dun tag me yer....I DONT NOE HOW TO ANSER !!!!! haha...AIZAN PLEASE TEACH MEE.... lol...n dun tak me coiz oso....EXAM YAR...

hehe..

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u get it?? it's a HEART!!....haha

hiee

2005-10-25T00:36:00.000-07:00

all i can say now is...thnks aizan sooo much 4 dis blog n ICE CREAM ROOX!!! hehez....KELLY CLARKSON....LoL..n peeiople...must remind me 2 post yesh???